Sometimes, there are the good days, sometimes, there are the shit days. This is one of them.

This is one of those times where i just get so angry all of a sudden, just cause he ain't paying attention to me.

Why am i so selfish? Honestly, i think that I am.

My mood gets shit whenever things like this happen :
1. Disinterest in affairs
2. Preoccupation of own affairs until don't care about the person you're talking to.
3. When there's nothing to talk about.
4. Mood dampeners. Like the three above, and many more.


I just don't know why I cannot cope with this kind of thing. I have issues with this, i know. But I can't tolerate everything now, can i?

Well hello there.. just feeling a lot in love lately...so i just want to add this into the picture..

Sorry if I made people barf in lovey disgust..for those people, you're missing out on the good stuff here!

Okay. This post is going to be about my darling.

A long time ago, he was just any other ordinary guy. The kind of guy that lets his hormonal kicks get the better of him. The kind of guy, who's really a guy's guy. What am i saying? He's just the normal guy. Mmmm that doesn't really get much attention from us girls. Particularly me.

Then a year ago, he experienced his first breakup with some girl.

First cut is always the deepest. And I got my heart broken like a porcelain vase many times and fitted together again so that I could function. BUt the scars still remain. Those cracks in porcelain still remain seen throughout the years.

And so those scars became a reminder to me, as to be wary of who I am going to be with that I could trust not to hurt me so...

Like a chrysalis to a butterfly (figuratively speaking), he changed into the person I could connect with, a person I could count on, a person I could love without hesitation of being compromised...a person I've been looking for all this while. . .

HE changed, cause of me.

I, for one thing, am grateful that you didn't give up on me when I rejected you in the past. I am grateful that I gave you a second chance to prove yourself to me, in the process I fell in love with you. It was time well spent, each day love grows, and blooms with much beauty.

MY darling, BEAR, you've always been the best for me, and you've worked so hard, to get to where you're at. I know cause working so hard and achieving something ain't easy, and you definitely do NOT want to lose that chance and opportunity.

I love you so much, more than I thought I possibly could, more than I thought was potential of me.

All because you've made me see that there are still people who truly care and truly love.

And that person to me, is you.

YO!.
ehheh.. I'm suddenly back into blogging [for today] because SOMEONE is also blogging...seems like he said he wasn't cut out for blogging but then after being so so so so so bored, he started a blog.


Name: LEE CHEN JI
Status: TAKEN. haha.
Weblog: www.gamingbrandofknowledge.blogspot.com


I guess I cannot really comment on the name of the blog. I mean, look at mine ... mascaraeddragonfreak...lol..


OKay. back to ME. hehehs.
Recently I've continued on my job after the singapore trip. But before I talk about my Job...

the SINGAPORE trip
Can be described as FULL OF SHOPPING, full of walking...and full of....food.... It's just nice that I can roam around freely with my own two legs to the most fab shopping mall...to the best food area... and back to the hotel. No sweat. No surveillance from parents... Freedom.

Okay back to the job. Upon coming back and working the very next day, I found out that one of my colleagues was fired. For stealing. A jacket. Mmhmm. Right. Great.

ONE less tamil speaking bozo is better than nothing at all.

Honest. I'm getting real pissed at that machine gun language...if I can escape it there, it'll be around my room, yammering away in philippino..so. No means of escaping the not-nice-to-hear language.

So ... I pretty much like my job ... pressing buttons, scanning vouchers, smiling at people, telling them things that THEY DON"T KNOW HAH!.. and well, being nice...and sometimes, real. So. TAMIL ALL YOU WANT !! I''m not gonna be there permanently anyway...

But I'll try to enjoy it while it lasts. And try to get them to change my shift so that I can go to the damn gym and boogie the evening away with Katherine. HAHA.

Don't picture that. PLease.

BYEBYEfornow!

Woooh. Today is the start of my *ahem* part-time job as a consultant in the customer service department. Or they said cashier, since I am dealing with...money..

WOOH I GET TO scan stuff [RM10 vouchers] with that funny scanner thingy...[there I go, Ms. Jakuun] So basically time kinda flew by...Was tending to people and learning how to operate that funny thing that records the amount of vouchers given bla bla bla. It was quite complicated...F5, F3 pressing buttons like that.

Oh. Many people [staff] asked about me, who I was and what dept i was. They just had to bulge their eyes off when they knew I was in Customer Service. I mean, what's the biggie, you know? What's so special about that post hmm??

When I went out for break, Chen JI sneaked UP ON ME lol..I was [guiltily] eating choc and vanilla ice cream..just had the craves, suddenly haha. I was really happy to see him after so long. Mm-mm.. So as the hours passed and I was out again. Shift ended. Met up with him again and into-ed him to my colleagues :). Yay I get to use that word. Haha.

Recently, before the job thing, I've been attending the gym with Kath. She pesters me to teman her haha. SO I would, if it's a dance class. I like dance classes. Mm-mm..

WE tried out COYOTE [haha I'm veteran at that lol.] and POLEDANCING. In the end of that class (the latter) hands were all...red...pain from the friction of swinging round and round the pole. But it was all good fun, cause there were no dirty thinking in any way whatsoever. Think 'BOOST confidence' and it'll be okay.

Now, I hafta go. Seeeee ya!