Helloo :)

Today.......... is a Sunday............. a carefree day.... a sunny sunday...okay so it rained in the afternoon...SO WHAT? The thought of it being a Sunday is still there. Here's the thing:

I played Dirge of Cerberus on PS2...and...IT WAS FANTASICA! Loved it :)..shootin at stuff...with that auto lock thing...much better than fps..end up dying ~~.. Well, I'm a die-hard RPG gamer, like it or not ! Well, it's about this man, known as Vincent Valentine, who is involved in some kind of experiment, without his consent, of course. Specialists in biotechnology like Dr. Hojo (the insane man who created him) and Dr. Lucrecia Cresent (another scientist..who's involved romantically with Vincent, until she chose to fuse a Chaos(a demon) gene into his blood, over her love for him. Sad right?) worked together to create a new thing with his body, I wouldn't know how else to explain it... So he ended up like...very unhappy with the outcome.. Given a chance, he would change into that demon, chaos, when he loses control over the Protomateria, the thing that controls it..or sumthin like that. Seriously, I am -so- lost in this game.. really, maybe I should have played FFVII...CAN ANYONE LEND IT TO MEEE?? heheh..testing me luck! Well, gameplay is nice, story is confusing, and he is soooooooooo gorgeous, the rugged look of him makes him even more gorgeous hahaha.. but I have no feelings for this game-character stuff. I have a life, dammit, and a boyfriend!!

So, Pictures of it will come shortly...:

This is Vincent :)-nice..-

And..

This is Chaos...[well, I found out that I could shapeshift to this big fella at the FINAL chapter...bummer..I wanted some of the fun earlier...

sigh~ such power..

Wonderful...wonderful creatures, this creators of Final Fantasy series bring....Sight for sore eyes, they are. I'll zone out for now.....gonna research for Dirge of Cerberus.....

I really do wish for the game, really..But it doesn't belong to me.. It belongs to my ... tuition friend..hmm, maybe i buy it from him nyek nyek nyek...but i highly doubt he'll sell it....I WILL try me luck..lol..

I'm out ~

Today..is a well-deserved holiday...for me, that is. I thought i could get something out of this but well...maybe not. Like i said earlier, I much, much prefer school days...BUT a holiday in the middle of the week is .. quite rewarding...

I went to Mid Valley today. Much to my dislike, cause I had to go out with my mom. Not to say I don't like the very being of her at all. It's her attitude I can't stand. Seriously, I have to load myself with expressos [mind you, not to drink, but to douse her with] if I ever want to see a smile cracking up that scowl.

And they say I'm an ungrateful child.....

I want her to be happy. I want her to be carefree. I want her not to worry so much over the littlest littlest things in life, such as things that may go wrong, say, spilling a crumb of biscuit, etc. and make so much fuss out of eating vegetables. Obviously, if she's not already NOTICED, my sister and I have taken a liking to green vegetables. SO DON'T MAKE IT SOUND LIKE WE DREAD THEM!
"Goh Chai Leng, your greens ah!" Take your greens! Why aren't you eating your greens? (note the negativity. Instead of going on the fence and ASKING if I have eaten, she ALWAYS, ALWAYS assumes that I NEVER touched the green stuff.)

Life can be really complicated. Sorry, [MY] life can be really complicated.

Proceeding with the mall thing, she is like the WORST shopping partner EVER! Knowing my mom, I should ALWAYS walk behind her in case she gets interested(or shall i say, distracted) by some funny thing on the side. She scowls at whatever i say, she furrows her eyebrows at my decisions, etc. etc. etc.! AND, there was one point I just trudged forward, not caring if she follows anymore. Besides, she's interested in her own affairs, as always.

Obviously, I would have loved a shopping companion rather than go alone. But she doesn't care whether I get lost or not. Seems that NOW she acknowledges that I'm finally adult enough to take care of myself.

Let's get down to the nitty-gritty. PUSHING ASIDE the shopping affair, it's that LOOK ON HER FACE. Ugh! That condescending, patronizing look on her face that says "Gosh, you're such a disgrace (to what, I don't the hell know...)".

...I really think it's that....message she sent me on MSN... I think she disgusts me for putting THAT one aside. But what she said to me was influenced by my CAPTION of a million months ago. You know, the MSN doesn't really update the captions till that person comes online, right? Yeah. So I guess I must've said I was bored of life till she decided she wants to join in my pitiful statement and try to make me a better person.

BULLshit.

I know she doesn't want to get her hands dirty. She only wants me to build an image that is acceptable from public views. She doesn't know the turmoil that builds in this very vessel of my soul. Of course, the obvious in-your-face reason is I don't tell her. Hell, that would be a BIG mistake. Knowing her and her know-it-all attitude, I'd rather let her be. Stats: Loves to jump to conclusions, always knows what's right, always criticize me for my actions or behaviour, etc..

Really, would this ever make me a strong person emotionally? In the now, I don't really have any emo support in this house, that's why I hardly talk..

My sister : Doesn't really want to give a damn, also inherited the trait of NOT LISTENING PROPERLY to my little complaints, and also too busy to even care.

My dad: ALREADY busy with so many things, the only things he'd want to worry about are his routines. And Chinese dramas.

My maid : Bad option. Known for letting me down ALL the time, never ever thinking that I did the right thing. Very behind time, too. And irritating.

See it all now? so...this is where i really need my friends...

Hmm....This is some change...well...I don't think I can display my blog url anymore on my msn...I'm afraid some PPL that i don't really authorize to look at it.. so this is gonna spread by word of mouth, i guess..

Today...was a ... normal..day...WELL tomorrow is a holiday, so there.. But I myself don't quite like holidays, i guess.....School's much better. [PLease don't 'boo' me...]

Well...recently, my mom just sent me some instant message, offline...saying that If my life's so boring, maybe I should do something constructive and revolve around other people's lives, not just my own, and see if I'm really fortunate or not...or around those lines..






What could she mean? and it's a little creepy...I'm off...to brood...

Okay.. On the 29th September, I went to the Avril Lavigne concert. Sigh. Blue zone tickets, far far away from the stage, and maybe i think we waited like 1hr 30 mins for the petite blonde to appear on stage.. Sheesh.. And the thing lasted for about 2 hours.

THAT's NOT ENOUGH! for me, really.

Okay then that weekend...went to penang. Not much there, just eat sleep play eat sleep play shop shop shop. Did i mention that time there was this clearance sale at Parkson Gurney Plaza?? Yeah. It was just ke-ray-zee..!
Take this for instance:

50% off clothes and stuff that says 50%.

Good enough? Here's more : ADDITIONAL 40% after reduced price.

Now don't go thinking it's 90% off and all. Honestly, these two situations are VERY different. You can try it at home. 90% is DIFFERENT from 50%+40% (if you noticed, that actually means 70% off stuff. Try it, if you're really bored. :))

Last week. Hmm... from what i remember, I had to attend two dinners that revolved around the birth of babies.

I never liked kids. They're a bother. -_-'

But I still had to go anyway...I brought a book with me in case I got bored. Tough, I actually did. What-a-genius!

Did i forget to mention that the TWILIGHT saga ROCKS??!??! currently I'm infecting my whole class with that fever.. hehehehahahahahhAHHAHAHAHAHHA!! ahem!

People say it's really addictive, it's not easy to put it down after some time when you read it. Face it. Stephanie Meyer is A GENIUS with first-person-perspective writing! The way she put things really makes you able to picture EVERYTHING that is written in the book. Which is what makes it interesting. You actually COULD picture it, whether you have a creative mind or no.

Moving on...I actually won something for my essay writing based on the most recent school event, Gema Merdeka. [Honestly i really think the response for this essay writing is so bad that they gave EVERYONE a prize for that matter, since so few people submitted. Doesn't feel like I won at all, that.]

For now, I have that bookworm fever. Been reading in school alot, when the teacher absolutely bores me out (note:Bio class) or when there is a free period(note:English class) or in between classes. Hahahah I practically made everyone around me READ! Makes me feel like a proud mom, somehow...

Sigh...There are so many things I have to say.. But there's just so little time, you know? Today is .. Friday...the 12th September...hmmm.. Fridays nowadays are getting more boring .. seriously...

Anyway, just got home from an extremely SHORT shopping trip with Tiffany and Esther.. sigh~~

Lesson #1: WHEN you wanna shop for something, PLEASE, PLEASE make sure you REALLY have the time for it, else it'll really be a rush and you'll end up shit tired!

Lesson #2: When you ACTUALLY manage to find something that you really like, even if it doesn't match what you want for the time being, but you still LIKE IT, like it's a fall-in-love-at-first-sight thing, BUY IT.
I'll say it again : BUY IT!
WHY? You ain't never gonna find another like that again, baby, and things are getting more expensive by the day. Seize the day and focus on the present! sigh~frustrations...

Okay... Seriously I don't really understand but the thing is when I got home and wanted to switch on this computer, mom was like.. I DON"T WANT YOU TO TALK TO THAT CHEN JI FELLA AHH...

that's kind of unfair, isn't it? I mean...yeah i do spend lotsa lotsa time with him but she wants me to COOL IT or something like that. Also, friends tell me that I have to spend less time with HIM and more time with THEM.

Decisions, decisions..

BUT LIFE isn't fair!
But he doesn't act like he needs me 24/7 anyway, he's not showing it. I actually feel better also to, well, hang out with friends more often..I don't end up disappointed say if he's like, busy with something I'm not interested in. Or in reverse, I'm busy with something and he's the LEAST interested in that. Sigh.

It's hard .. But i'd try.